In my last post, I talked about my challenging climb up Mount Kinabalu and how it had left me sick for a week after. I had not counted on still being sick another week on. For some reason, my cough persists and shows less signs of giving up than I did on the climb. Because of this, I've had two weeks where I haven't been fully able to exercise and train for the upcoming adidas Sundown Marathon in May, where I'll be attempting the half-marathon. That leaves me with just a month left to prepare, provided I start running today. I'm not convinced I'm quite up to doing that just yet.

All this has left me in a bit of a panic, as well as giving me an unwelcome dose of self-doubt. Am I just making excuses not to train? After all, I haven't been too sick to miss my weekly futsal sessions. Perhaps I'm suffering from some sort of burnout after my endeavours over the last three months. Also, I initially wanted to put in a lot of time working out through mixed martial arts at Evolve MMA, but I have only managed to do so once. I want to start going regularly for this MMA training, but I'm also aware that I have to put in the training for the half-marathons I'll be undertaking. I'm not sure where I'm going to find the time for both, or the other new sports I was supposed to try.

This is the point where I usually come up with the upside. Where I say I'll be strong and push on. Not this time though. This time, I honestly don't have the answers. I'm honestly not sure when I'll get my running shoes or BJJ ghi back on again. Like you, I'm only human and flawed. I can only say right now that I know better than to beat myself up too much over this setback and crisis of confidence, and that I'll find my way back in good time. I just hope it won't be too late when I do.

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